Saturday, April 29, 2006;12:54 PM
yay.. i managed 2 control myself for 4 days! but not for msn.. heh..
AA RAWKED!
omg d best part was when dat scout went 2 "propose" 2 cheryl! i was so shocked n laughin away.. he juz practically kneeled in front of her n gave her a flower! tink next time no one dare to b lead actress aledi..
so sad.. they din sing canadian vesper! it's d nicest guides song ever! at least to me.. haha..
GOH had to stand outside d hall for veri long.. 1 hr? my feet and back were hurting n they even gave us a lecture on how we shud respect our guests.. but it was so boring n they din even allow us to talk to each other.. dat was d worst memory i had of AA so i decided not 2 do GOH animore.. i'd rather b usher!
after GOH.. qiying realised she was veri tall cuz most of d guys were shorter den her! haha.. so she was lyk "i feel so tall!".. n we realised dat d ratio of guys dat went 2 d toilet to d girls were equivalent to d ratio of dominant genes:recessive genes.. i tink its more den dat.. it shud b arnd 5:1.. so we were laughing everytime a guy went 2 d toilet..
during d guest performances i was praying nobodi wuld stand but they all did aniwae n i was at d back so i couldn't c aniting.. sigh..
for dis post im juz jumping here n dere so it's kinda random.. haha.. o yes i remember.. at d end of d concert hannah suddenly pulled me away.. haha n
she*ahem* was dere! all d RJC ppl skirts so short! n their shirts super long.. not proportionate(izit spelled dis way?) but i guess its d style dere..
crappin thru d post.. juz writing wad i remember.. dere was dis guy fr RI 01 hu went 4 d next top model contest n won.. he was walkin lyk a seductive woman.. tink he's d leader of d grp..
overall AA was fun n it was definitely better den last year!
i feel lyk composing a poem..
the truth cannot be devulged
lies and stories told
keeping the secret deep within
the depths of the world
three wise men
misusing the secret
blackmails occur
is the truth still safe?
death
the only solution
to keep the truth as it is now
untold
only within the hearts of the three men
buried underground
the lives of these men
are the threats of the secret
fight till the end
Only one can survive
the one has to keep the truth
the one has to take the lives
of everyone who has ever
touched, seen, heard, smelt or even tasted
the hurtful truth
that is why they say
the world is a lonely place
within three
two dies
one lives
and that one lives his lonely life
a small secret
worth two lifes
it is purchased
by fate
how costly...
Monday, April 24, 2006;9:04 PM
i promised not 2 blog but.. dis is SERIOUS!
2dae, MEP tcher told us dat MEP wuld b on weds next yr! which means.. hv 2 quit guides! NOOO!! after 2 years of hard work! passing enrolment was so difficult! n d tests n all.. n most of all, my frens! my seniors! my juniors! especially magdaboon n tricia [celine has 2 quit too!] n vera n charmaine! my buds! oso.. d uniform so ex! now quit so early! NOT FAIR! a big sacrifice for MEP! i wana get a post.. i wana go PGA.. i wana do d sec 4 dance during AA! now i might nv get d chance! *sob* farewell 2 me everyone.. gd morrow.. gd sorrow.. ms loo saes its on weds cuz its d shortest day! but y can't it b on mon? mon nobodi has anything.. except kiwan.. heh.. n sum ppl hu has 3rd lang but 3rd lang can change days! i relli dun wana quit guides! hope they change d day 4 MEP.. haha.. i made so many new frens in guides n now i lurve it lyk siao cuz it is d CCA w d most ppl! lets see..
2005: yanshan, ashley, celine, mag, filz, shu han, hui wen, yen yee, tricia, vera, charmaine, aqilah, amirah[quit aledi :(], qiying, sara, qin yan, rachita?
2006: jolyn[is dat how spell it?], xinyan, mengxia, aida, xianmin?, emelyn?, shinyi, fangyi[actually not dat new.. lol], sanusha?, yuan jun, xinyuan
Dunno if dere's more.. can't recall so many at 1 go now.. will add more when i remember.. but rite here dere's aledi so many! plus, dere's my patrolmates!
fr swallow: joni, jiayi, jasmine, yvonne, izza, cheryl, hannah[when she cums n visit].. yijun[last yr]
o n gd luck jiayi cuz u in MEP too!
No wonder dere's no guides in MEP! oni me n celine! n we r victims of MEP! sigh.. veri sad.. hv 2 leave everyone! hopefully they'll remember me.. or even better, miss me! haha.. im sure mag will miss celine! n i'll miss everyone! :)) bye!
Sunday, April 23, 2006;11:23 PM
gonna support table-tennis comp! wonder if i'll c sum ppl i noe dere? x) n i duno whether mrs koh's gonna let me miss her geog lesson.. i dun wana miss it either cuz im 1 of d worst in geog.. history PT killin me! k actually i not doing much work cuz im lazy in nature.. but i wana keep my history marks high.. so better work hard! watched a movie but din noe wad d title was.. hurhur.. bought green shorts.. piano lessons.. boring day..my tagboard's officially inactive cuz willette n octeo nv cum crap anymore since they hv their own blogs.. n nobodi else would cum tag.. oni xiner sumtimes.. i tink nobodi noes my blog add.. or they dun wana noe.. no more poem fever.. no more inspiration.. valteo's been obsessed w hi-5 n pokemon n i duno y.. she jus luvs them..? n fr 2dae i lurve "8 simple rules to date my teenage daughter" sitcom.. its so darn funni.. i've been watching too much tv n blogging 2 often.. tink i shall try keep away fr d blog 4 d whole of next wk n den c how many ppl tags.. k kinda lame but i dun tink anione wuld tag.. n i shall keep myself fr msn for 5 days.. so fr 2dae onwards its gonna b study study n study! other den octeo n wil nobodi toks 2 me on msn so i guess it doesn't relli matter much.. aniwae im hopin 4 loads more click five songs so if u hv send 2 me! i love good day n catch ur wave[haha dee].. so sad u're gg away.. i'll miss u alot! muz take neoprints sumtime k?
RS is relli slack.. we watch VCDs for hw n we oni do serious stuff for 10-15 mins during d whole hour.. d rest of d time we crap..
sigh.. i shall control myself fr now on.. i'll stop here..
Saturday, April 22, 2006;1:33 PM
WOW2dae i wuliao go n visit my 6/1 classmates' blogs.. n i realised they matured so much! can tell fr their entries lar.. n im still d same way i was in P6.. ok mebbe now much grosser[is dere such a word??] n more gossipy[a word?] n my spelling's gotten much worse.. aniwaes.. they all tok lyk they're 17 or sth.. n i can't believe its d same ppl i knew in P6! sum became more bimbo n sum became so obsessed w fashion.. n d tings they wan r those branded stuff.. gucci suddenly became popular..[n guess wad? i dun exactly noe wad dat is! heard of it oni.. heh].. sum became lyk "rebels"?! haha.. im sumhow still d same.. except 4 my hair change? i remember P6 my hair was lyk all tied back n horrible.. k now it's still terrible but better.. at least i tink its better.. though a bit more messy.. [im not a hair freak lyk my sis] n im still as blur as ever.. lyk keep crashing into ppl n tings n now when im freaked out i start shriekin in dis super high voice n i duno y! it happened on d bus when d bus suddenly jerked n i crashed into dis guy n i was lyk "sorry sorry sorry" in a high-pitched voice n when i realised, i was so embarassed! celine n tricia n d other ppl hu were dere keep laughing at me! so mean.. its not my fault! even my classmates fr sec 1 changed alot! all grown up.. haha.. n my sec 2 class has ppl hu hv boyfrens! so young lar.. mebbe in d current society its quite common cuz even d most unexpected ppl hv boyfrens.. i can't communicate well w guys.. or at least i nv try 2.. cuz d guys r alwaes in those "cool" cliques w sum girls n i dun relli fit in.. so mebbe dats y i chose girls sch.. but in JC hv 2 face them again.. most prob they'll juz ignore me lar.. o well.. tink i crapped enuf 4 today.. EATING SAKAE SUSHI! YAY! gtg!
Friday, April 21, 2006;11:11 PM
i thot of a new way of posting! dis is a poem, but its in d iambic rhythm ting.. hahaThe geisha dance as graceful as the windHer face is white as if a ghost she's seenBut actually its covered up with chalkAnd on her feet she wears those long white socksShe wears kimono covered up with flo'ersColourful, bright and tall just like the towersShe whips her fan out of her droopy pocketAnd waved as though she has gone off her socketThe patrons sit and sip their lovely teaWhile geishas danced and sang to music beatTheir long hair tied neatly into a bunThey smile as brightly as the golden sunThe patrons smile contented with their danceThey clapped and cheered for the pretty geishasThe geishas made alot of cash they sayThey now know that money will make their dayYAY NICE?aniwae.. 2dae is lyk my lucky day! 1st, d pre-AA activity was cancelled! so i din nid 2 b I/C!! but cum 2 tink abt it.. it'll b fun! but o well.. 2nd, I FOUND MY TREFOIL! 3rd, song medley 2dae was a success n when everyone laughs im happy [lyk during my speech i hv no idea y ms chen laughed when i said wad my speech was abt but aniwae she laughed so i was happy, n others laughed at sum of d funi part of d speech so im contented].. 4th, she called my name 4 d 1st time.. 5th, many ppl said "hi" 2 me 2dae n dats kinda rare cuz im not veri popular.. 6th, no hw 4 d wkends except 4 PT.. 7th, 190 bus came quickly after i missed 1 and mrt train oni nid 2 wait 1 min.. 8th, my chiobu declares her love for me.. haha.. ok not literally.. im not les.. 9th, jingwei said sth relli interesting [d torture machine] haha.. 10th, i discovered sth abt d song "peace like the river" haha.. 11th, i saw sec 1s recruits dance.. n its entertaining.. n their dance is so much better den ours! unfair! but they veri stone.. not enthu 1.. 12th, made a new fren in guides.. 13th, tuition tcher let me n lifang cheat.. others hv 2 finish their zuowen b4 gg but we could go 1st! yay.. 14th, heard my PL cheryl sing 2dae.. n SHE CAN SING! but i heard she went 4 campus superstar so it shud b expected.. n SHE CAN DANCE TOO! she can do bodywave.. envy her..yes so many lucky tings 2dae.. but hv sum unlucky stuff..1st, celine n mag keep abandoning me.. lucky banana w me! yay.. love u banana! muackx.. 2nd, disappointed by d song mr mizar let us hear.. tot it was gonna b nice but den.. dat guy sing super high.. n d instruments louder den d voice.. 3rd, GOH.. hv 2 change into guides uni in 5 mins! which is ridiculously insane! 5mins not even enuf 2 juz tie d scarf! n i cheated on my hair cuz i din wana tie plaits.. hehe..AA cuming! not dat excited.. hope d dinner not as much as last yr.. or not providing dinner? last yr we eat until wana puke.. in d end hannah help us cheat abit.. haha.. n i hv 2 wear guides uni 4 whole AA i tink.. so sad.. tmr saturday.. YAY.. finally..
Thursday, April 20, 2006;9:53 PM
WORLD BOOK DAYGrace, Hui Wen, Shevaun n Karishma were dressed lyk geishas 2dae! haha.. so cute! n valteo dressed lyk old Japanese chikopei[again, not gd at spelling] n i tink she looks lyk regular patron.. x) Xin Er and Rui Xin were patrons of the geishas oso.. n guess wad? they look so SHUAI! lolx.. ms chen oso dressed lyk geisha.. n she carried dis red fan arnd n when she came into class she was lyk "konichiwa" n i was staring blankly.. haha.. our class deco was nice.. n summore last min 1.. so its pretty gd! sigh.. tmr guides im I/C.. n i dun even noe d other I/C in 3rd COY.. so... gd luck 2 me.. anyway.. got back my geog paper.. when i saw my marks.. i almost puked.. so horrible.. i started asking arnd n found out i was d worst among everyone! AHHH! n they made it worse by saying theirs is terrible.. blehh.. my ting xie 2dae oso failed! but i din relli study.. heh.. i wish mrs koh wore a geisha suit! it'll b so fun! ms chong oso! wonder wad they'll luk lyk.. hehex.. im crapping away n dere's hw on my desk.. yes im lazy n i'll end up sleepin late again.. tink better go do aledi..
Monday, April 17, 2006;8:46 PM
We had cooking 2dae.. baked pizza n made jelly! although my pizza din look lyk pizza.. heh.. but aniwaes.. Ms Chionh was so funni! haha. she's a nice tcher.. x) so unfair.. we were supposed 2 get 3 lessons of cooking! now we oni hv 1.. but at least we had 1.. >< my pizza n jelly was EDIBLE! yay.. according 2 my sis, my pizza wasn't veri nice.. so sad.. but my jelly was gd! haha.. i lurve d colours! especially d RED one.. lol
i dun tink im gonna write poems animore cuz everyone's startin 2 copy me n write poems in their blogs!! valteo, wil.. so i shall try 2 tink of another method of posting.. a DIFFERENT method.. haha..mebbe i'll consider writing letters or sth..
Went to TOUCH Community Services office 2dae.. apparently d place was under renovation n we din c d sign below so we climbed halfway n realised dat it was under renovation.. so we went 2 d next block 2 d office n talked 2 d person I/C.. SL is wearing me out! but i tink wil's more tired den me.. cuz she's been doing all d work.. TY! Muackx.. aniwae d place was super uloo[or however u spell it] n so scary lar.. but overall it was fun.. me wil n dorcas played hangman in their office while waiting n willette u still hvn given us d ans 2 d word yet! heh.. we met dis guy on d bus n he was lyk showing us sum handsigns n i was lyk "HUH?" but he continued tokin though i duno wad he was saying n apparently dorcas kinda understood! WOW
i relli wana do children.. but no choice.. taken up aledi.. :( cuz i dun tink i can understand old ppl.. as in they tink in DEPTH.. n their depth is veri DEEP! yes lyk philo.. while children is lyk innocent n all.. o well..
My sis is crazy over dis Rusty brand n i duno y! it's not DAT nice.. we went 2 PP on sun juz 2 c d shop lar! she's too spoiled.. haha..
tink dats abt all.. tink veri abrupt but BYE!
Sunday, April 16, 2006;11:47 PM
i 4got 2 sae.. click five was wearing RED during hollaback crew.. so i shall <3 RED! RED ROCKS! x)
Saturday, April 15, 2006;11:13 PM
I <3<3<3 CLICK FIVE!!!!!!!!!!
Hollaback Crew Finals RAWK! Mostly cuz CLICK FIVE was there! n d finalists were amazing! but aniwae.. the lead singer was SO handsome! now i <3 them even more!
aniwaes.. at d Hollaback crew finals.. i saw SHAN WEE.. omg he was so tall! lyk when all d DJs stood 2gether he was popping out fr nowhere.. lol.. n he was so shuai! n justin ang n vernon A [k i duno how 2 spell their names exactly] they RAWK! haha. but they were wearing these pinafores dat look lyk SCGS's.. i was laughing lyk crazy.. plus jamie yeo n daniel ong.. tink they were d main DJs 4 d performance..
Street Fusion rox! they did sum Amazing stunts n i was lyk WOW.. den fr dat point i supported them! haha.. n they WON! yes they deserve it.. they were relli gd n original [quoting my mum].. SCGS costumes were super revealing.. n they were a little bimbo.. but it was still nice! nicest of d lot under 17..
OH n den there was Don & Drew.. God they were so damn funni! As in they super straight-forward lar.. they make up dis song on d spot n it was so Amusing! they gave dis girl claire a pineapple as a prize n made her sit on d stage as they carry on their performance.. haha.. so she was lyk using d pineapple 2 cover up her face.. I got an autograph fr d lead singer of Ronin.. actually i not veri familiar w them.. heh.. but he was so kind! took pics n signed autographs 4 everyone! n they relli ROCKED! as in rocked d whole stage.. d music was BLASTING!
LOADS of fun 2dae! n now im even more obsessed w CLICK FIVE! since i've seen them live, my life is complete! for now.. hehx
;12:30 AM
PEOPLE PEOPLE!pls return my MONEY! i'm relli BROKE!i lent out abt $5 aledi! n it's been a LONG TIME.. i relli nid CASH!i dun lyk asking u 4 money.. so can u all pls REMEMBER? n when i ask once n u still din return me can u pls return me d NEXT day? i'm lyk a loanshark now.. lol.. $$$$thx alot
Friday, April 14, 2006;12:19 AM
The mosquito buzzing around
Looking for its next victim
It needs blood, preferably sweet
To fill its stomach
Like a vampire with fangs
The mosquito landed on an unfortunate person
It started feeding
It was a buffet, a paradise
The wonderful taste of blood flows through
Its mouth, its body, its veins
The person was furious
Smack! the mosquito never flew again
A grin spread over the person's face
Revenge was taken
No more mosquito bites
Just juicy juicy mangoes
[dis would not make sense 4 those hu din watch Bend It Like Beckham]
Wednesday, April 12, 2006;8:56 PM
Running like I've never ran beforeRunning like my life is coming to an endRunning round after roundA long term tortureFour rounds of runningRound that red trackIt seemed endlessPerservereMuscles achingLungs burstingLips dryI feel like screaming for helpBut nothing comes outOn and onI want to stop and take a breatherBut Discipline is importantRun onStep after stepMy weight seemed to be a burdenMy legs felt numbSweat dripsI'm almost thereI told myselfThe finishing line is right ahead!Then I saw itMy teacher and friends waiting at the ending pointWaving and cheering me onMotivation is always goodI sprintedAll the wayCrossing the lineI did itAchievement found
Monday, April 10, 2006;10:56 PM
I placed my stuff on the tableAbove where valteo asked me to seatI went to buy food from the vendorBut when I came back..She was thereSitting there in my placeCan't she see thatMy stuff is there?I sat behindA little furiousShe took my placeAnd a fact's a factI ran up the stairsForgetting about my stuffBut that was only becauseI could not see from behindShe helped me bring up my stuffShe passed them to meA look of disgust in her eyesAs if I was some kind of loserTHANK YOUBut I know I was not welcomeI noticed that I was not invisibleBut rather, ignoredShe never called my name before
The nicest thing she didWas push my chair in frontAnd laugh her head offAnd it was not funnyBut I still smiledMaybe I should learn from herNow it's my turnI'll ignore her tooSweet revengeBut she wouldn't notice it anywaysSo why bother?But why do i need to bother?She ignores me in the first placeI know for sureEvery year in classI would not talk to a particular someoneOr rather, that someone would not talk to meLast year it was "i"This year it would be herI wonder who it would be next year?
Sunday, April 09, 2006;11:05 PM
A little girl stood along the roadGlancing around, hopingHer legs were numb from waitingThe car had not arrived yetIt was already timeIt was fifteen minutes lateHer mum was late againAs usualWeek after weekThe little girl stood by the roadWishing her mother would be on timeJust for onceAs weeks pastThe girl grew tiredTired of her mother's habitTired of standing by the roadWaiting, minute after minuteFinally one weekThe girl walked out to the roadShe did not stand to waitShe walked by the road She sat on the kerbAutomaticallyNowHer mother came on time
Saturday, April 08, 2006;11:19 PM
In the midst of crowd
People surrounding me
I stand there in the middle
But not alone
Two confused little girls
Stuck in the centre of
Many homosapiens
Frustrated
People came, people went
But none of them we knew
Strangers they were
And lonely we were
Then suddenly
The light lit up in our heads
The guides booth stood magnificently
Glowing, Hallelujah
We walked over
It was not heaven
Instead
It was a state of confusion
Two pairs of guiding hands
They walked over
They lifted our spirits
Without twitching a muscle
We stayed together
Took some cones
Walked into the crowd
No longer confused and alone
Kachang Puteh! we shouted
As loudly as we could
Hoping someone would come over
To purchase the nuts
Nobody came
We started to lose hope
Covered in sweat
I smelt gross
Then a girl from swimming club
She bought one from us
We were so happy
She even gave us a free ice-cream
The coins in my pocket
Jingling, Tinkling
The sound of success
So pleasant to the ears
Then I saw a friend
Which made my day better still
But he didn't buy our product
I think we were out of luck
Today's ORA was not really a big success
But I am sure everyone enjoyed it
It was a fun learning experience
Next year we would do better!
Wednesday, April 05, 2006;10:11 PM
I told her how I feltShe promised that she would never ignore meShe still doesn't get itDoes she?I know she wouldn't ignore meBut what I suffer fromIs severe neglectI don't have to courageTo speak up when i'm not invitedI don't have the courageTo initiate the first moveI did a personality testWhat it said was trueI need attentionI need concernI need friendsShe told me that she wouldn't ignore meBut she doesn't realiseWhat she does everydayIs pure ignoranceOn the staircaseShe walks with the twinsLeaving no space for meThe staircase was only for threeDuring lesson timeShe rushes off to talk to the twinsWhile I sit and stare blanklyLoneliness overwhelmedDuring CLEShe stands by their sideWhile I stand oppositeAll aloneThat's more than enoughTo prove my presence was unimportantI really envy the twinsThey've got each otherPlus an extra friendDo I have anybody?Maybe I'm too selfish to shareBut that's in my bloodIt's my plain natureGuess I should reflectI just can't stand being aloneI'd rather have someoneTalking all day longTalking to MEOr be included in a big conversationWhere I still get addressedThan to sit aloneOr be neglectedHopefullySituations would change
Like the weather wouldDrasticallyAnd it'll be sunshineAfter the rainPlus an extra rainbow
;8:54 PM
I waited at the stairway
Hoping she would stop
Hoping she would wait for me
Hoping that she would at least notice
Nope, unexpected results
She just walks off with the twins
Chattering, laughing
As if i wasn't there
I guess she was overjoyed
Too happy
But what she didn't notice
Was that she was breaking my heart
I always thought I was her best friend
Guess I ain't
When other friends are there
I'm just a forgotten piece of trash
Long travelled out of her mind
I strolled into the classroom
My heart was tearing apart
I tried looking depressed
Just to get her attention
Then it hit me
She didn't even notice my entrance
Now my feelings
Match the expression on my face
I could have burst out crying
But I have my pride
I did not want her to see me cry
But I guess she wouldn't notice anyway
Nobody else cares
Not my classmates, not my friends
When they ignore me
I get stabbed inside
Wounded, hurt
Hidden
I wished she had waited for me
At that stairway
I wished they have waited for me
Before heading for recess
But I guess this is just a stupid dream of mine
One that can never be fufilled
I am a loner
Nobody notices
Maybe they don't even look my way
I hate that
But I can't change it
I can't change my character
I can't change the fact that
People don't like to hang out with me
Well maybe I can
But I don't know how
I have a wish
To find someone
Who really needs me
Who cares about my presence
Who won't leave me out on anything
It'll be better
If it were a group
But that is almost impossible
Trust me
I have tried
And I'm still tryingOperation failed
Tuesday, April 04, 2006;10:30 PM
i shall create a stupid poem juz as valteo suggested.. :))The deathlyThe torturingThe evilThe STOMACH ACHEIt's my regular patronIts visits are irregularWhen it comesMockery falls on meIt causes pain, duhIt's a long-term obstacleI have to try to overcome itBut I've got a problemI don't know howWhy it keeps bothering meI don't knowWhy I have to endure this painI Don't knowJust thenThe hiccups strides proudlyInto the systemBreaking the codesIntruding into the areaRobbing me of my energy resourcesThe murdererWith his accompliceThey attackedI died on the spotBlehhJust a short poemhaha..
Sunday, April 02, 2006;1:21 PM
A poem abt my sis! haha! dat time she got angry den i composed dis poem.. blehh.. n believe me.. it's not easy to cope w an angry sister, especially one lyk mine.. hahaha.. anywae, enjoy!She's at it againThe time is upThe time bomb in her brainHas exploded yet againShe's losing itHer temperature roseThe thermometer brokeRants and vulgaraties splatteredI'm woundedThe gun in her mindAimed, shot and firedIt got meThen silenceCold, cold silenceIt scares meAs if there would beAn ambushWating for meWaiting to attackI dare not breatheAny sound i makeCould trigger the alarmAnd they would be on meAgainThen in the distanceI hear a generalHe commands his troopsTo stop, to give upPeace is restoredShe speaks as normalI heave a sigh of reliefThe war is overI have won