i took this test. haha its cool n actually quite true :)

You want to be regarded as an exiting and interesting personality able to persuade others to comply with your beliefs and ideas. You are charming and able to influence other people who come into your sphere of influence. You like mental stimulation and you are the sort of person who is prepared to 'try anything once'. Your confidence is so much so that others are often swept away by your enthusiasm.

Most people are conditioned by their environment and you are no exception. You are an extremely emotional person - so much so that 'the wrong word' can lead you to tears. You feel other people's pain. You feel the need of sympathetic relationships and a pleasant work environment in order to develop and grow. You are an impulsive, loving individual with a great deal of inherent feeling.

You lack confidence and that is a great pity because deep down you are indeed a warm caring person. This lack of confidence is making you wary of being drawn into any open discussion or conflict and so you feel as if you should let matters lie and leave well alone. But there may be a pleasant surprise in store for you. You are beginning to grow and very soon - sooner than you believed possible - this warm loving new you will be available for all to see and to appreciate.

You are an emotional, sincere and impressionable individual experiencing frustration and unnecessary stress. You vehemently resist any form of pressure from outside sources, insisting on your independence as an individual. You want to be a decision maker - to make up your own mind without interference. You wish to be able to draw your own conclusions and arrive at your own decisions. You detest uniformity and mediocrity as you want to be regarded as one who gives authoritative opinions. Your favourite expression could well be that 'I may not always be right but I am never wrong'. You're a perfectionist and even though you may feel that the other person's point of view may be right, you find it extremely difficult to admit that you could be wrong.

You are greatly impressed by individuality and have interest in people who have outstanding qualities. You try to imitate those people that you admire and their characteristics, hoping that you will be able to display similar qualities in your own personality.


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hey i think im alright now. mentally, but NOT physically. fyi, im hurting all over from muscle aches, from my shoulders to my arms to my stomach to my thighs. ITS ALL CUZ OF NAPFA. but anw, thx for all who showed concern :) i'll just continue being the same old crazy blur person u knew. i think my tagboard is screwed or sth, sigh. sheez i can't stand sit or walk properly now. can someone piggyback me home everyday! haha.. today i even slipped down the stairs, cuz my legs are very wobbly n keep collapsing. but PE today was fun! we had another "squashing" game in the SQUASH court! haha.. but this time it wasn't that fun as tues'one. cuz tuesday yitong xinqi n waiian all squashed me the ONE time i was a goalie! today hv muscle pains, so i couldn't do anything.

YME on tuesday was super fun! cuz cheryl valteo n i got one room all by ourselves. n mr hideaki was super funny, nvr imagined he was a basketballer. but basketball IS fun, though he's the shortest player. haha. n he was advising us on guys we shud date, n its FUNNY. seriously. like how he says it. n u noe raoul from phantom of the opera? his name is john in real life n valteo totally crushes him. so i was like telling him, valteo has a boyfriend called JOHN! he's in ACSI! [australian creative studios international, we made it up on the spot] hahaha.. n he believed! n i was like, he has brown hair n sings well. omg i was so amused. after dat, when he found out he was giving me the diao-.-" look. i think our grp's the craziest grp ever.. <3

EOIs are coming, n i still dun get chem, nor math. im so dead

dear diary,
why is my life so screwed? i just flared up at my mom yesterday cuz of my sister. and then, i got a friend who seems to get pissed off by me, seemingly so aloof now. either she's pmsing or its my problem. i think its mine. n i've got someone who keeps making me feel guilty abt work i hvn done. its starting all over again. i'm tired now, i sleep once i reach home every night. i don't even do homework. there's still another wk b4 EOIs, how will i survive? i think i need psychological counselling now. i need to talk to someone, but for now there's no one i can really relate to. because i smile when there's a problem, no matter how my head aches, i'll just pretend it's all well. but it seems i can't take it anymore. one day i'll just fall sick n faint. the only things i look forward to are sleep and sleep. im losing my temper soon, im sry if anyone is affected. cuz now im no longer who i used to be. i can't be optimistic n happy abt everything anymore. cuz now my life's in a mess.
love,
me

cuz i can't turn to you when it all falls apart..

bio pt grp sleepover sat-sun!
yeah our whole bio pt grp slept over at dorcas' hse from sat-sun! her hse so big! i think its 3 times my hse.. her room smells like my cousin's in America.. haha ok im just being random.. anw, we did bio pt all the way till 4am in the morning! actually 3.30, den we played truth or dare! its VERY fun! haha finally the long-awaited sleepover plan for the 4 of us came true! but hopefully there'll be one that is for fun, not work.. i feel quite bad cuz i was the first to go, cuz of my piano class.. but we still finished bio pt! her bro has this super cool microphone for the com.. it looks like those recording studio mikes! my voice sounded very very very weird.. it sounds a bit like a chipmunk! -.-

other stuff:
guides last session last fri! YAY! n they told us not to cry. i almost laughed. haha.. not dat i hate it, but there's so much hw n im almost dying. n GUESS WAD? we're gonna hv a collar pin for GUIDES. only sec 4s were cheering. haha. i was laughing with vera. xD

IM SO SO UNLUCKY TODAY!

wana hear abt it? haha u hv no choice man :)
detention reflections was stupid.
1. why am i in detention? because no matter what i say, nth gets in their heads
2. do i think i am responsible? well yeah, cuz of my short term memory and my socks being too loose and i dun wana spend money on new ones?
3. what should i do to improve myself? well, i'm gonna memorise the whole entire handbook of school rules and discuss school rules related topics with my friends! i'm sure it'll be fun! -.-

there was 11 qtns altogether wth. me n willette just crapped some answers out. but dc was actually quite fun..

ok 1st unlucky thing, i screwed up MEP prac. yeah thx, i jammed like 5 times?
2nd, i think i got freakin lowest in class for MEP history test!
3rd, i think the letter my mom wrote to the pb mistress was totally wrong, cuz she said i got booked OUTSIDE of sch, i wanted to change for her but i forgot! so i just stupidly give the letter to that prefect to pass to pikachu.. problems will come soon.. oh yeah, i din blog abt last night! my mom suddenly went crazy and started typing this letter for pb mistress! omg, how dead am i! now im gonna be slaughtered (or electricuted :D) by pikachu!
4th, the photocopy machine had to die on me..

i think celine got the unlucky wave too.. she had stomach bacteria or sth.. poor girl.. well hope she gets well soon!

tmr is PFT.. wah i want this whole unlucky thing to go away! it caused enough problems for me.. i'm not superstitious or sth, but when i'm unlucky once, i'll be unlucky the whole day.. thx to mep-ers who drew that funny funny person on the whiteboard dedicated to me! i feel honoured haha..

i can't wait for june. seriously. the only lesson i look forward to is RS, cuz YMEP is super fun! i think mr ang is really really a nice guy. i think nice ppl like him are so few now.. he's even treating us to jelly, and he nvr scolded me n wil for gg DC cuz he says our entire class are like his daughters.. like WOW.

anw, just wanted to say im really unlucky today, but hopefully someone donates pomelo leaves and a bowl of fire for me to get rid of this bad luck.. heehee.. oh n i forgot to say we had skincare lesson ytd! it was fun, me n valteo went to LKC library with all the make-up on.. lucky mine isn't that obvious.. haha..
n yeah, thats all.. :D

i've tried so hard, yet nothing happens.. yet everytime you would do it again, n i'd just walk away, pretending that i'm the one thats walking away from you, not you thinking i'm invisible and not even caring.. ever heard of self-denial? yeah, thats what i'm going through now.. everytime i'm unhappy, only the closest of the closest would see it, and you don't. so i guess you don't know me well enough.. because i always try to hide it, even if i want to cry, i'd just be silent for a while then put up a smile and deceive myself, deceive others, thinking that i would always be optimistic.. it happens all the time, just that you don't notice it.. so everyone thinks i'm always a happy and crazy person on the outside.. on the inside, i've never told the truth to anyone before, not even my closest friend.. be honoured if one day i tell you i'm telling you what i really feel inside.. because u'll be the first to know..

EMO post over :D
now for happier stuff! valteo and i went to Lee Kong Chian library for bio pt research ytd! i love her mom man.. she treated me to yoshinoya, and even bought breadtalk for me! i was feeling a little buhaoyisi, so i promised valteo a treat to tako balls next time! we stayed at the library till arnd 9pm.. we rock :) valteo had a nasty experience there, GGas at LKC! haha.. so funny..

today's YMEP rocks even more.. it gets better everytime.. our grp n mr hideaki rocks! haha.. mr teo was kinda moody today.. i was too, b4 YMEP.. after YMEP, nat valteo and i went to raffles city shopping mall for ben n jerry's free cone day! 1st time eating B&J.. not bad lah, but not especially nice.. i wana eat the vermonster one day! it is 20 scoops of icecream for $88! so expensive, but i wana try.. someday when i become rich.. dreaming again..

tmr there's MEP practical.. wish me luck!

as rain pours down, u could never hear my screams, nor see my tears

random stuff. ben n jerry's free cone day next tues!
ytd was guides AA! i was usher with magdaboon n yuanjun, wearing aprons and looking stupid OUTSIDE school beside the road, feeling weird stares. but i admit it was fun :D cuz of yuanjun's retardedness haha.. i bet the scout n guides we ushered think we are spastic.. red cross' dance was super nice! i want their choreographer! haha cuz guides always do some bubblegum dance, n red cross' was really cool hip hop! RI scouts did the same kinda dance they always do, always linkin park... there was another sch i can't rmb, isit hwa chong? but they were breakdancing, which was kinda nice :) i love huirong's letter! haha, its so funny.
celine n i cabbed back after dat, i reached home only at 11pm..

guess wad? detention slips were issued during hall assembly ytd, so willette n i got ours. n we looked arnd n started laughing, cuz we could see all those holding papers were the ones going dc too!hahaha.. it was kinda funny.. well, after all it was friday the 13th.. so i din feel so bad :D

back to today.. its raining so heavily.. i only woke up at 12.45! how cool is that. n i agree with ms seto dat we dun hv a life, all cuz of school. finally a day when i can rest properly, the thing to wry abt now is bio pt. cuz my grp consist of 4 computer dummies n they want us to do flash or sth for the pt.. HAHA we are gonna fail dears. i admit im an idiot at computer. in my life, computer is used only for: music, blog and msn.. i think i dun even noe how to use microsoft excel properly.. :) good luck to us!

quite a bad day today :(

chem spa was totally screwed up, i din finish 2 qtns..
stayed back for guides, so couldn't hv lunch outside w valteo..
in the end i din eat lunch at all..
i was the only sec 3 in structure, no one to talk to..
structure itself was a bad thing.. tied ropes till my hands almost peeled..
but only sec 2s were commended for their hard work..
went home only at 7, reached only at 8
walked to the bus stop in heavy rain

and that's how unlucky i am..

but i made this new quote!
friends are your confidante, friends are your confidence
to all who have been true.. thx :)

grooming lessons today :)
Jill Lowe gave us this talk abt how we shud dress, walk, sit etc.
I'm an Autumn-Spring! means my face suitable for rich goldish brownish autumn colours! coolioz! haha..

then there was this lit drama thing.. the UK tcher, who's also an actor and director, taught us some stuff.. ACTOR AND DIRECTOR! my role model man.. anw, we did this centre of weight n centre of personality thing.. and all because valteo was acting as a horse, n he found it interesting, WE HAD TO PERFORM.. but it was quite nice :D

btw, our lit pt is 107 pgs long! how cool is that. i love my grp, VVWWX...
n our math pt is 75 pgs! n adding cuz mr ang told us must be double spacing.. so guess how much it'll add up to!

SHE DOESN'T WANA CANCEL MY BOOKING. ruined my whole day.. sch rules are so strict n not flexible.. fine larh, i'll go detention according to ur wishes, happy now?! at least willette accompanying me :) thx to pene who helped me talk back n complaining with me haha..

now im getting scared..
cuz SHE wants to meet me at pb on monday!
wish me gd luck to win this battle! :)

happy bday kristal!

hey stranger, am i a substitute again? yo i am NOT a life buoy.

hey person, stop treating me like shit. i am being nice, not being a fool. stop taking advantage of me, always thinking u are right and i'm always wrong, scolding me for nth and when i dun rebut, u think i admit i'm wrong. THIS IS WHERE U'RE WRONG. i just don't want to waste my time talking to u, nor listen to ur nonsense. so just shut up and keep the hell out of my life. just so u noe, u are irritating and unreasonable.

ok, confessional statement over :) i feel so much better..
i just came back from The Phantom Of The Opera Musical at the Esplanade!! omg the soprano singer sang so high i had goosebumps.. i think overall it was quite nice, just that some songs kept repeating over and over.. the phantom was "flying" in the show, literally. i like Music Of The Night.. the song's really nice.. for those who r gg, the last scene's really good! yeah,i wun spoil the surprise for valteo. haha..

we went crazy over boss' dinousaur, bobo. haha it is a disaster..

right now, i'm getting bored...........................................
im sick of school.. wana know my hw NOT done?
1. Math PT
2. Lit PT
3. Bio PT
4. Chi PT
5. Chi yanjiang zuowen
6. math assignment 3
7. english compre
8. chi xiaolianbi
9. Lit film review
10. Read Pygmalion
11. Chi file to b ready for submission
12. Bio Journal to be ready for submission
13. Geog test
14. Chem SPA
15. Prepare for MEP practical
16. and many more stupid stuff

people still hv to piss me off....
count the white hairs on my head, one for each event where a person upset or angered me, or stressed me out...