i've tried so hard, yet nothing happens.. yet everytime you would do it again, n i'd just walk away, pretending that i'm the one thats walking away from you, not you thinking i'm invisible and not even caring.. ever heard of self-denial? yeah, thats what i'm going through now.. everytime i'm unhappy, only the closest of the closest would see it, and you don't. so i guess you don't know me well enough.. because i always try to hide it, even if i want to cry, i'd just be silent for a while then put up a smile and deceive myself, deceive others, thinking that i would always be optimistic.. it happens all the time, just that you don't notice it.. so everyone thinks i'm always a happy and crazy person on the outside.. on the inside, i've never told the truth to anyone before, not even my closest friend.. be honoured if one day i tell you i'm telling you what i really feel inside.. because u'll be the first to know..

EMO post over :D
now for happier stuff! valteo and i went to Lee Kong Chian library for bio pt research ytd! i love her mom man.. she treated me to yoshinoya, and even bought breadtalk for me! i was feeling a little buhaoyisi, so i promised valteo a treat to tako balls next time! we stayed at the library till arnd 9pm.. we rock :) valteo had a nasty experience there, GGas at LKC! haha.. so funny..

today's YMEP rocks even more.. it gets better everytime.. our grp n mr hideaki rocks! haha.. mr teo was kinda moody today.. i was too, b4 YMEP.. after YMEP, nat valteo and i went to raffles city shopping mall for ben n jerry's free cone day! 1st time eating B&J.. not bad lah, but not especially nice.. i wana eat the vermonster one day! it is 20 scoops of icecream for $88! so expensive, but i wana try.. someday when i become rich.. dreaming again..

tmr there's MEP practical.. wish me luck!